Another restless night for me...just took a walk outside to clear my mind. I'd forgotten how adorable a lonely night can be. Everything stands back and I'm all by myself. The stars look so beautiful tonight and the full moon shines on the fields. I've lost myself out there tonight and went home again far after midnight. I never could have said that I missed such nights in the past two years but right now, I'm so glad that someone above is taking care of me and gives me the chance to find myself again. By the way: I think I'm doing pretty well these times. Sometimes I'm a little pissed off and I'm sorry for everyone who has to talk to me then. I never meant to cause any trouble or be a problem myself. I'm just sorry and when you read this, please forgive me.

"So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?"